Dear blog,

I am quite busy, so not blogging often. There is little to note. I do not feel well, with a cold, but no so unwell that I cannot get chemo tomorrow. I am due for chemo on Thanksgiving day. I must decide whether to go short or go long. Pros and cons to each. If I go long, the whole process will run longer as a result. If I go short, I miss the break. Same for finals week. That's the long and short of it.

"...has this experienced changed you perspective on how you want to live your life? Has it affected your feelings about death or changed your opinions about anything like health ins. or capital punishment or anything like that?"

In short, no. I feel like I was living a fairly full life before the risk of truncation became more solid before my eyes. I have been impelled to read a few books I was meaning to read, but nothing other than that. So while many find God or realize they have wasted so much time or whatever, I did not find or realize anything to that effect.

And in regards to health insurance, my opinion has not changed. My personal opinion is that in an era of such abundance: that there should be produced each year enough grain to feed the world; that individuals exist who pay in property tax the net income of entire villages over generations; that even one adult has the liberty to choose to purchase a large house between his other two houses so that he need not stop at a hotel driving from one to the other; in this world, it is unthinkably immoral and corrupt of anyone to believe I should be bankrupt because I rolled unlucky at the cancer craps table. I think it unfathomably disgusting now, now that I am facing the cruel reality of sitting near people whose surplus of wealth would handily end every financial woe I possess, knowing that if I even mentioned the disparity to them that they would merely cough uncomfortably and attempt to part company. I thought it unfathomably disgusting that such pairings existed before I was in one.

Frankly, it's enough to make any upright citizen sick if they think about it long enough. So now, as then, I try not to think about it.

Regards,
Ian Hogan.