Tears

Dear blog,

I cried tonight like I haven't cried in many years.

I walked in on my mother and sister watching Titanic on our ridiculously large television. This put me in mind of one of my favorite scenes. I looked it up on youtube just to listen to the string arrangement of Nearer, My God, To Thee, which I haven't found anywhere else. It can be found here.

I couldn't pin down exactly what did it. There are, in my opinion, a number of tear worthy things to that video. It recalls the horror of people resigned to die or fighting to survive and failing. The music is beautiful. The juxtaposition is heart wrenching. Maybe it was just a trigger for something that has been waiting for years to come out.

As I type, I'm listening again, and still crying. Almost sobbing.

It's just so sad.

-Ian Hogan.